Alright check my new beat out I made it myself woooo FL Studio is awesome, props to all the music producers who use it because making beats is hard!
Happy New 2011 to everyone, wishing you all a better year than the one you have had!
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The Bffff Show: Whats the topic?
December 4, 2010Its been long overdue, but my Bffff Dale and I are going to do a podcast but what to talk about???
Our last podcast was about Dale and his experiences growing up gay and we’ve been itching to do another show but we dont know what to talk about. We can talk about anything for hours and hours but what would you like us to cover in our next podcast?
Leave a comment with your ideas, we will cover anything!!! (gulp)
From Illusion to Clarity
November 15, 2010Its amazing how much distress you can endure and still come out of it with your mind intact. We’ve all been there. Suffered the devastating pain of anxiety, stress or painful realization that your life is not quite as it seems. No matter what you do, no matter how honored you try to live, the painful reality that it is how it is can be a slap in the face.
And in some weird way, it is uplifting. You take off the illusions and the clarity of your life is almost refreshing. If you’re lucky enough you can see the mistakes of your past and begin to understand how not to repeat them. If you’re brave enough.
This phase we call enlightenment makes me wonder if this is the reason why we struggle with what we struggle with. To come to conscious awareness of our own lives, our own realities, can be a revelation for many of us. But what do we do with those revelations? What can we do?
I consider my own revelations and wonder if I can afford the effort to do anything about them. Because to change my path will have a huge impact, one I may not be quite prepared for. Yet. Can I weather the storm that will come, if I decide to morph into someone with a completely different direction?
I feel like Im in a war already and soon I will have no choice but to take up arms if I am to survive. If I fight this war, who will survive? I know I will. The manipulations that have lead me to this space in time have given me strength and courage to fight a battle I have always won. My greatest weapon is my integrity because mine beats all.
To evolve in this ever growing phase of enlightenment is the ultimate goal, to gain understanding, clarity and maybe… courage.
We shall see.
The Dance in the Basement
May 31, 2010I want to share something with you. Outwardly, its not profound or deep or even significant. But its an experience that each of us lives for. An experience that cuts through all the boundaries to show us the purity of our souls. Or not. Whether we hurt or bleed in some way, or whether we flow through life living for the next moment, there is always the experience of Read the rest of this entry ?
